sammie
* Birthday *
` 260288
* Age *
` 18
* Lurve *
` pink.Black.White.purple.Colorz
` My.Family.Frenz
` personality*
` friendly,fun,blur,sentimental,outgoing
` i have changed.i won't turn back.
[A]dores.
hanging out with friends
playing soccer,basketball
ruby,swimming
dressing up
blogging
surfing net/listening music
making friends
sentosa beach!!palawan!!
watchin tv/horror & comedy
watching anime
readin comics
cosplaying [L]oathes.
`everytin n anytin tat is unwated to me
` Bitchez.Slutz.bastards
` Backstabberz.Liarz
`people who think they r right & not give clear reasoning!
`spoilers!
// [L]inks.. *
`pure milk pink blouse
`jap long socks
`micro mini skirt
`a cap
`travel to whole of europe & shop there!
`out of sch 4va
`make more new friends
`learn exotic,cha cha,latin,ballroom dancing
(i need a partner!)
`be a good girl always!
hello!!!haha..gawd i m so tired..today..even slept in class..anyway i was pretty upset by what one of my close pal had said to me...i do not want to reveal her name cos it will definetly angerred her further..well,she juz told me today that:"if ya arent gonna leave that group,u aint going to buck up and i washing my hands off u!i shall not give u anymore advices." this is what she told me.i got really upset..so so upset....probably right now everyone had been sayin to me that my results turn out like that was due to me joinin back the group..but actually in my prospective thinkin, is not the group that affects me the most, to cause my results to downpour...it is MYSELF! i wasnt able to get over all the problems that i have been involved the previous months..since june...yeah..ever since the day when vincent break up with me...my close friends.. started scoldin me...and causing me to have a very deep impact in my heart..and came hoechuan..who of no reason kept broodin out abt the past..that i once did to him...and in the end ended our friendship..from then i was really depressed...i could not even smile...until the day when i met that special someone..he brought colours...to my life..i was able to smile for a moment...and again my problems with my other close friends began to rise,tensions were high..i realised that i became quite unreasonable towards him. cos i was unable to stay happy when i was with him due to this problems..and thus my relationship with him ended..but at least one person who was with me all along throughout the problems i m facing was my that close friend...she give me alot of support..yeah..i appreciated it very much..and advices too...i chose to listen to it some..only..cos i somehow believed on my conscious in some parts..and now that i m back with my group..she was unhappy..i know..she,like others believed that my results dropped was due to my group....which i believed in myself is not true..each time problems comes,i neglected my studies..and now i really regretted...
if u guys wanna know how have i been doing nowadays,to tell ya the truth,i had already been working very hard...trying hard to study...i m getting help from my cousins and good frens...despite the fact that i know my results was bad enough for me to get out of school...haha.guess what?i was the lowest in class for english...lol..surprise right?i was surprised too..where is the samantha that once had done so well for english?well she is gone..but she is going to prove to ppl now that she can pass english.. :) .haha...when feena told me that my f&n results arent good,she ask me,"arent i upset abt my results?"i juz kept quiet cos i m not upset and i cant be bothered..then she ask me again..."oh i know!u waiting for miracle to happen right?" i told her this.."what can i say?what can i do?this is the results"..then she said:"but u got to try!" i told her..:"i know!" but seriously la...when she told me this,i had mixed feelings...i had feelings like,all these things that happen to me is driving me insane..and that...of cos!i kept trying..well,to tell u the truth, i been tryin hard now...have u,feena?.thats why i dun really bother whether m i the lowest or what..my results so bad..i only lookin forward for the day when i sit for the exam..had all my efforts been paid?or wasted?..all i ever care abt now is my studies...cos i m going to improve..no matter what..and the reason for this is that,i m proving to everyone that i will be the samantha that u once know...the one that score well for most subjects,the one who studied alot.who is hard-working.the one who hate to use hp..(well,seriously,now,i began to hate usin the hp!ugh!)..steady all the time...this is the real me...and also tough in thinking...
i had definitely let my previous form teacher down..she told me this,:"sam,if u constantly keep working hard the next year,i can trust that u will be a perfect student." well,i did took her words seriously,cos last year i was nearly retained too..however,i seem to find myself get defeated by the problems i m facing every now and then,and because of this,ever since the start of this year,my results gradually dropped...well,at least now i know...
what i really had to do now is to turn my words into actions..and prove to everyone the way the samantha used to be... :) seriously to tell u the truth now,i m not waiting for miracles to happen..i believe miracles is juz yr luck..but what i waiting for,is the real thang! had i been working hard to make it thru..?or again i got defeated by problems,thus resulting in the lack concentration of my studies?....like what i say, i m physically,mentally prepared for the worse..and that is true..even if i retain,or i had a need to change school or take private o due to my poor results..i wont cry..really..cos i came prepared.at least once,i know,i tried..and had really put in my best effort. :) that is me...well,if i do make it thru,then thats a good thing la..haha...i dun want to put so much hope..cos overconfident is not going to bring me anywhere..i shall juz take things in my own stride.... oh ya! and if u ppl ask me whats with my msn nick which is this :
"what can i say?what can i do?i m not upset,cos i aint gonna cry.i m prepared 4 e
worst n prayin 4 e best* Tears is juz aint me* "
well,my entry today had said it all...so happy readin...haha!k la...gotta go bye!
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