sammie
* Birthday *
` 260288
* Age *
` 18
* Lurve *
` pink.Black.White.purple.Colorz
` My.Family.Frenz
` personality*
` friendly,fun,blur,sentimental,outgoing
` i have changed.i won't turn back.
[A]dores.
hanging out with friends
playing soccer,basketball
ruby,swimming
dressing up
blogging
surfing net/listening music
making friends
sentosa beach!!palawan!!
watchin tv/horror & comedy
watching anime
readin comics
cosplaying [L]oathes.
`everytin n anytin tat is unwated to me
` Bitchez.Slutz.bastards
` Backstabberz.Liarz
`people who think they r right & not give clear reasoning!
`spoilers!
// [L]inks.. *
`pure milk pink blouse
`jap long socks
`micro mini skirt
`a cap
`travel to whole of europe & shop there!
`out of sch 4va
`make more new friends
`learn exotic,cha cha,latin,ballroom dancing
(i need a partner!)
`be a good girl always!
great..now i m back home safe...anyway..i m pretty pissed off..cos some idiots are adding me into two stupid conversations which i dunno why they puttin me for.and i dunno who the hell are they...anyway..i went out with louisa today..realise that its not really a competition...haha..they are juz searchin...its called the "teen models search"..hmm...then we saw michellek...haiz...i dunno la...got talk la..although i know the whole situation...but juz talk lor...michellek also join..before that we went to take neoprints..ya..later i will scan the neoprints..do check it out ok?...and then i went tuition lor.afterthat i went to j8 buy my dinner..chicken rice!!!..lol.met my mum and my sisters.haha.they having dinner..but i told them i go home la.i m going to make potato eggs.soon cos actually juz now me and louisa wanted to cook but realise not enough time..anyway..wad a day..haha...
then inside tuition, me and eileen were discussin abt how some guys are juz being such an asshole...hello..comeon lor..quite true wad...to me hor,i find some guys in singapore are being a jerk..such as.i think all those who know me should know who la...they say one thing and meant another thing....whats the fucking hell with them?then i tell u guys this ok?nowadays girls are smart now...pls stop using those lame tactics..ok?seriously la..sometimes i felt i can read a guy's mind..juz tat they r always denying.and i began to not bothher much....juz lets take one example..i had an ex...he bluff me that he was two-timing me all along..during the day i had my mid year exams..thats the day when he said he break off with me..u know what??i dun believe..after he broke off,i dun believe his words..i kept thinking its not true..becos he did put a girl into a conversation during the breakup.. and named the girl as.."jane"...hmm....i already know something is fishy..the words he told me is definitely not true..cos afterthat i called a friend of mine.. and she told me she talk to him but he was busy talkin to a mysterious girl..hmm..wow!if he had a stead at that time,the girl would have already spoke to me...but its so wrong...maybe he may not understand y is it wrong...i dun bother anyway..afterthat a few days later, my friend *nana*..(i dun want to expose her name...)..told me that my ex call her..and tell her that actually he was juz cheating on my feelings...and that he did not two-timed me..the girl during the conference is fake..and that i,sammie koh...so happened to know that the girl is juz his classmate...but i do not bother now..and when nana say that...i was not really shocked cos whatever he said..its the same thought that i was thinking it is...nana thought i wanted to cry and she is prepared to hug me....but actually i dun intend to cry..i juz got that "huh?" look..and suddenly juz blurred out.that what my outer attitude says..my inner attitude however was very confident that the main reason is not juz two-timing..its something else...so when nana said that i got this expression in my heart : "ha!i m right!" its true....anyway some guys are really a jerk... get a life la!..to..those who use lame tactics.to me right now...is useless..it wont work on me..if u really like me..pls try something different..haha..ok la i being mean la...but i m really pissed off ok???even eileen also...those kou shi xin fei de nan ren!to tell u the truth,i m a really a very smart person i can read people's mind easily...hmm...i think i rather be lesbian!ha..cos girls knows girls the best..they can communicate..talk problems out...and all that..and they can easily understand each other...so why dun i be a bunk now?now that i got such a good chance..hahahaha...no la...i cant..i know..i m sure someone is out there waiting for me..haiz i hate guessing games..especially when guessing the feelings...
then i was telling eileen abt my special someone..then she told me this..probably when he say those words..it shows that i might had a chance to get back to him..but i know its too late cos those words quite long liao...then she told me..is better we stay as friends..1st..maybe thats wad i want also..i also do agree....and probalby when we get to know each other better,then say then see if he worth my love anot...haha..luckily she understand me...i will listen to her lor..even when i like william that time..she also tell me to go stead with him if i really like him...cos that time william ask me..but i ask him to give me some times..then i consult eileen..and she told me the advice.. .when.i told this to louisa..and a few close pals..they will surely start scolding the guys...probably me too...why do i still want to care abt guys who already break my heart and make me suffered..?..when love is concerned,it dosent matter....and to me,i really dont mind..juz a matter of fact that u have to give me times either to let it go or hold on....if u all really want to be angry with me cos of this...i really got nothing to say..juz that u all got to understand me first..now i understand what true love really is..it is not juz the feelings..but its juz something deeper..its juz that u really got to commit,realise each other weaknesses..and that u r organized in this.. and most importantly trust..
what is lacking in me and my that special someone is probably trust..we did take things slow..learn to organise...the way it is..and unfailingly try to keep ourselves committed..probably i felt now..is better we be friends..first..get to know each other better...i love it this way..despite the fact that i m still induced in him...it juz need time..i do not know if my feelings for him remains or fade..i juz leave everything to fate..and right now i m learning to be mature...
:)
i think i stop here...for now..go bathe then eat dinner...haha
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